What is the experience of the body and mind after awakening?
At breakfast t.k. was asked, “What is the experience of the body and mind after awakening?”
First off it is profound non-specialness and utter uniqueness for, in it, the body knows all beings, even all appearance, as a single shattering of light—like the billion rainbows of dawn rays on crystalline frost. All appearance is the poetic utterance of the divine and this means a profound equality of all appearing.
The extreme meaning-fullness of all appearance arises from awareness’ luminous ground of equality and in each moment this value laden uniqueness manifests as an almost unbearable tender-heartedness. It is a question of knowing, recognizing, and living that knowing.
Right behind the breastbone is an expanse of Love whose extent dwarfs infinity. Every appearance subtle or obvious—realms, beings, Buddhas manifests from this expanse of openness and clarity. To the body it feels to be there, behind the breastbone—the heart ... but, in fact, the body and all bodies and appearances are within it.
After awakening, in the absence of identity, Love lives the body. For this particular body (pointing to his own) it is experienced as a tender-heartedness that is ceaselessly welling up, animating the cells with a longing to give itself away to every being, every atom of appearance. Oddly, because it is the natural state, the body almost never even notices—just as a fish does not notice the water it swims in. But if asked, and the body turns its attention toward itself, the radiance of this expanse swiftly overwhelms, engulfs the senses in unborn bliss.
The brain is washed clean of its grasping to concept by an unborn Silence. I think maybe Silence is the context of the expanse and Love is the content and they are like a flame and its warmth. In that silence, mind perceives appearing as a network of infinite intersecting luminous threads. What we call space and time, realms and beings, are simply condensation of these threads—droplets, nodal points. Mind, as Silence, uses Love, as body, to manifest compassion in a poetry of circumstance. It does this without ever confusing itself with the concept that there are Buddhas who save or sentient beings who need to be saved, or compassion, or threads of light, or Love or Silence.