Body, a nexus of perceiving
"God has not created us for self-dominion, but as instruments of his wonder." – The mystic Jacob Boehme
and the littlest blade of grass?’)
Sleep eludes me and I wander circles. I was once on of those people who
sleep easily, and deep, but now restlessness bewilders me. This body a doorway, the God
Janus, who stands in doorways, who stands in moments, who stands in silence facing
both directions. Body, a nexus of perceiving [ nex·us (nkss) n. pl. nexus or nex·us·es 1. A
means of connection; a link or tie: 2. A connected series or group. 3. The core or center. ] an
aggregate of wonderment.
Light mystifies, confounds, keeps me up nights. The science of photonics seduces me.
God’s message neither wave nor particle, a flowing river, grains of sand, a puma in the
jungles of Quitratue, the sensuous curve of your lip, the two silences.
I was once one of those people who slept soundly in unnoticing but then this fragile
instrument of flesh and living became all astonishment at the surprise of pine
needles, the revelation of melodies in flowing water, the infinite improbability of frost and
sunlight’s love affair
4 AM and sleep is beguiled by that most perfect of all mysteries Appearance and
Perceiving. I walk a pilgrimage of disclosure around the edifice of everything and
unmake the suffering of knowing in a silence born of wonder. (And now the only
question is ‘How ego ever survived the perfect astonishment of a bat’s sloping flight and
At the request of a friend I am footnoting references within some of these bits of writing:
Jacob Boehme – German Christian Mystic 1575 – 1624
The Roman god Janus, god of beginnings and transitions, whose two faces look in the opposing directions.
Photonics is the science of generation, transmission, emission, modulation, signal processing, switching, amplification, detection and sensing of light.
Quitratue references a poem of Pablo Neruda, Love Sonnet XI
‘Unmake the suffering of knowing’ is a reference to both the 14th century anonymous mystical work called The Cloud of Unknowing and also the 5th century mystic Pseudo Dionysius’s ‘luminous ignorance’. Both of these works, like the great Buddhist adept Nagarjuna, emphasize the failure of intellectual conceits and conceptual efforts in realizing Truth and the divine.